Monday, November 8, 2010

blessed.

In my limited vocabulary, that's the only word I can muster up to describe how I feel.

Utterly & abundantly blessed.

I got a call from my wonderful, and most favorite, director, Zoe Saba, today during which she informed me that my performance as Madame Pernelle in CSUB's production of Tartuffe had earned me a nomination to compete at Kennedy Center American College Theatre Festival's Irene Ryan Acting Competition!

This is my second nomination, and, honestly, I couldn't be happier for a number of reasons.

First, this role of the crotchety grandma (who according to a lovely review from our new dean of Arts & Humanities was a blend of Hamlet's Polonius & The Importance of Being Earnest's Lady Bracknell) was not one that I chose or wanted, but was assigned to me because I was the best fit with who we had audition for the other roles. But along the rehearsal process, I, with the help of my lovely director, was able to explore and really play & discover this crazy Julia Childs/Nathan Lane a la Birdcage character, and I ended up really loving her.

Second, six months ago, I was stuck in a hospital bed wondering if I'd ever be able to act or do shows again. Even 8 weeks ago, when Zoe talked to me about being in the show and asked if I was healthy, I told her yes, but still felt that gnawing fear in the back of my mind that I really didn't know if I was going to get sick again somewhere down the line of the rehearsal or performance process. Yet after all the ER trips, hospital stays, doctor visits, and fears, I was able to perform again. I was able to do what I love and what, I feel, God created me to do. And, not only that, but I was recognized for the talents God's given me & rewarded for them.

So naturally, when my dad brought up the fact that it was so wonderful seeing me up on stage doing what I love rather than stuck writhing in a hospital bed, I started tearing up, simply because of this entry's namesake...

I felt blessed.

So extremely blessed and joyous that God has given me so, so much.

Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy.
-john 16:22-



mjl.

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